Why Is Love So Painful

Fall in love with million tastes. However when breakups feels also million tastes. But this time, it seems so painful. Like I've experienced recently. We live far apart cities. However we did agree to ponder each other. We are just knowing each other about a few months and in the process there are things we could take to support one another, if this relationship continues into a more serious phase.

And without I guess before, she turns out, she prefers to choose other men that in fact in the past. And the girl confessed, it turns out that she still loved him. That's so dark you know. It's like I ran fast and suddenly I hit a wall. I feel shock, pain, poignant mix in one. I seemed to crumble at the seams. A fact that should I face, I failed in love for this time..again.

After the event,  I pass through my days with grief. As a cloudy cloud that continues

to overarching goals of my head wherever I am. Want to get mad, but I cannot. I want to hate her, but I cannot. I have to thinking, am I have a disorder? I should pissed to her. Why if it undertakes wrestled, but when she has ex boyfriend was back, Instead she picks her ex? But, I'm still cannot accept it, I still care to her. This is it makes  so hurt. At that time, I was really struggling to could face a rough time of it.

And at one point, I think. That I could not change this fact, it is really beyond the control of myself. I just continue to surrender, to let Father God wrap my pain. And I am convincing of myself that only the power of Him who can make me have hope again. I want to say Father please help me. .. I can't face this time alone ... help me ... ....