Love Rejection

She was interesting, friendly, clever, insightful, stubborn, too.. The most important is she has spoken word well, that made me fall in love. I wish she knows what I tell all the things I just told you ... 

It turns out, she doesn't know what I feel. Have you above experiences that happen in your life? Usually experienced the same guy who recently exposed love syndrome. The love virus ' attack ' on only one man namely you. So ironic, I am busy with a sense of love, meanwhile she is so relax. If you do not express that you feel, the virus it could spend the whole your energy. As a result, you cannot do anything because you want to sleep, eat it feels cannot be enjoyed, always remembered her.

 By the way ... I had a similar experience. I met the girl, at first glance she's interesting. Yet too in the recognized result anyway, but quite a lot of things that I can know about her and certainly .... I think the vision of my mission (which I have got from Father) and she could be in line. Almost six months I maintain friendship with her. Roughly until the fourth month, there was a strange feeling I guess. Later I know, I found myself falling in love. Unfortunately, the feelings that I bring continues in my life without ever intending to reveal it on her. My mind says, not this time.

You know, it turns out that just the way I feel ' tormented ' me. Without knowing

whether my feelings this clarity not to clap the next hand. Until then I consult practitioners. She makes me absurdly confused then. She just told, if the feeling of love is already too deep, then it's time I should dare proclaim my feelings to her and certainly ready to face all the risk include love rejection. In other words, any answer from her, I should be ready to continue my life again.

Finally I decide to declare my feelings to her. But, it's not an easy thing for me. We both have different rush hour, so quite difficult finding an empty time to make appointments with her. Its negative effects because it is difficult to find any leisure time. Then, we both start to assume negative to each other. I assume, she may already feel that I'm in love with her. But, she rejects me, subtle way that is shy away from me. While she is assuming, I'm selfish. I don't want to know how's busy her. So, complicated and hid feeling anyway. ...

Thank God, I have the chance, but I couldn't talk to her directly. So, we discuss by phone. Blah ... blah ..., finally I am expressing my feelings to her. Then, she answered she could not accept love from me. My love expression rejected by her. I'm hit, I'm hit. Why? Because, I have been failed to foster a relationship of love and this time, the second.

Thank God, I can continue my life back again. And certainly, I continued to increase relationship with Father, fostering relationships with others in accordance with Him procedures and be patient awaiting His mercy down.


... ... seek God's Kingdom first and His righteousness...............